Savasana or corpse pose, is the last pose after one has given their all on the mat.
I tend to leave a great deal of baggage on my mat, almost as much as I do on the altar at church.
My mat, and yes it’s MY mat, and should something ever happen and I am no longer able to practice, I will burn my mat to keep it from ‘talking’, smile.
My past haunts me daily, no matter how much I give it to God, or say I’ve left it on the mat, I always manage to pick it up on my way out the door (of the church or the yoga studio).
However, I find that when Tammy starts our yoga practice, something always finds it way to the surface and I spend half of my time fighting tears or half of my time sniffling because I can’t control the tears. I know it is annoying for others to hear someone sniffling when they are trying to concentrate on their practice and I work very hard not to sniffle, but I’m no good at hiding my emotions. I only hope they think I have a cold, after all, it is that time of the year, smile.
Back to Savansana, it’s a time for silence, for listening, but if one watches me, I’m moving some part of my body, it’s very subtle, but I can’t lay still and I can’t stand the silence. In the silence my past finds me and I can’t change it, nor deal with it, so I keep moving.
Tuesday night, as we lay there, Tammy instructed us, as she always does, to be still, relax, listen to the breath, and you know what I was thinking about – getting a hamburger after class because I was too tired to cook when I got home; a friend and the situation she’s found herself in; how I didn’t want a migraine, as my body was working on conjuring one up; and lastly, I hate this pose, how am I suppose to be still with all these thoughts running through my head.
Now, after a yoga class I eat healthy, I mean, I’ve just sweat off about 10 lbs, so I’m not putting it back in my mouth, so why in the world was I thinking about a freakin’ hamburger? My minds way of protecting me from the baggage that lays in-wait for me to ‘be silent in my semi-stillness.’
Tammy would probably make be pay for those thoughts, so I’m not tagging her (laugh).
I feel like I’ve embarked on this journey and I have no control (and Melissa doesn’t like no control – I am the definition of a control freak!). I’m not sure where I’m going, where I’m being lead, and part of me wants to fight it, and part of me is tired of fighting the demons and is ready to follow.
Now if only the tears would stop….
God bless and Namaste!
Think back to what studying abroad did for you. Before, during and after your experience – you changed. Your experience produced powerful insight into differences among world cultures, and a deeper understanding of your own. By sharing your story, you help prospective students, their family members, professors and others in the community know, feel and appreciate the importance of studying abroad.
We want to hear your story about what you experienced when you studied abroad. Please read our contest eligibility criterea, deadlines and tips for how to write your essay below. We look forward to reviewing your entry!
- Southern Miss undergraduate or graduate students who have participated in study abroad are eligible.
- Essays must be no more than 750 words.
- NOTE: Any and all submissions to the Eagles Abroad Student Essay Contestmay be used at the discretion of the Office of International Programs for promotional purposes. By submitting your entry, you agree that your essay can be used in this way. Winners will also be asked to supply photos from their study abroad experience.
Essays should be submitted online by Sunday, November 27, 2012, at midnight.
Please do not complete any part of the online form until you are ready to fully submit your essay. You may upload a copy of your essay via our online form. When you submit your entry you will be emailed a copy of your submission to confirm its receipt.
Should you have any questions during this process, please contact Jessica Lamb.
- 1st Place will recieve a $50 gift card to Barnes & Nobles bookstore, the opportunity to waive the deposit fee on a study abroad program, and their essay will be shared across campus and in the community.
- 2nd Place will receive a $25 gift card to Barnes & Nobles bookstore, and their essay will be shared across campus and in the community.
- Tips for writing your essay
Be thoughtful and carefully compose your story. Check carefully for grammatical errors and stop by the Writing Centerin Cook Library 112 for assistance. When composing your essay, consider the following questions:
- Was there a particular encounter that surprised you while abroad? What did you think and feel? How did you react? Would the experience have been different at home? How and why?
- Did you attend or participate in a unique social aspect, event or practice of your host country? Think about social holidays, festivals, national events, business or everyday practice.
- How have you gained a new perspective for your major/minor/country/life?
- How is life conducted differently in your host country? What social or business customs stood out to you?
- Did you experience any culture or re-entry shock?
- How long has it been since your experience? Has your perspecitve changed with time?
- Did you learn any valuable lessons while abroad? Are there any lessons you would pass on to students considering studying abroad? (lessons about eating, traveling, making friends, dealing with bureaucracy, etc.)